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[Chorus:]
After all of the times that we tried,
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made,
I Know Now you don’t love me the same

The way that I love
(The way that I love you)

The way that I love
(The way that I love you)

The way that I love
(The way that I love you)

[Verse 1]
I woke up kinda early today, and something told me from that moment it wouldn’t be the same
Felt like you were hidin’ something, but I didn’t push it,
I didn’t complain or say nothing
I tried to act like I didn’t see it,
’cause deep down I know I didn’t wanna believe it
There it was, it was you and her,
you left your sidekick on the night stand and I read

[Pre-Hook]
Everything you did and everything you said,
now I’m standin’ here lookin’ like damn
I thought it was you and I,
now all I gotta say is why

[Chorus]

[x3]
The way that I love
(The way that I love you)

[Verse 2]
I noticed now that when I’m around, you be tryin’ to lock the door, whispering on the phone
Now wait a minute,
since we been in this house you ain’t never did this before, tell me what’s this about..
(What’s this about)
I tried to sit and say to myself,
this here is too good, he don’t want nothin’ else

There it was, it was you and her,
you left the credit card receipt inside the beamer with

[Pre-Hook]
Everything you bought
And everything you spent, now I’m standing here
once again I thought it was you and I,
now all I have to say is why

[Chorus]

[x3]
The way that I love
(The way that I love you)

Oh Oh
You lied
You lied
Oh why
Why
Yes
Why’d you have to lie to me
Why’d you have to lie to me-e
Why’d you have to lie to me
Why, why, why, why
You lied, you lied, you lied
We made, we made, we made
Oh

every time i think you couldn't disappoint me any more, you do.

"Summer time and the wind is blowing, outside in lower chelsea.
And I dont know what Im doing in this city,
The sun is always in my eyes,
It crashes through the windows, and Im sleeping on the couch,
When I came to visit you,
Thats when I knew that I could never have you,
I knew that before you did,
Still Im the one whos stupid
And theres this burning, like theres always been,
Ive never been so alone, and Ive never been so alive."

-Motorcycle Drive by, 3eb

Today I walked out of the office in my Gucci sunglasses and my Michael Kors purse. I could tell people were staring, and I thought to myself, "Damn, I've made something of myself."

Yes, having my own money does make me happy. Going shopping and coming back with two Michael Kors purses just cos I want to makes me feel better about myself. Being able to drop that kinda money and still having enough in my bank account to make most people my age cry, that's what I'm proud of myself for achieving. So what if I measure my success by my material gain? That's all everyone else cares about.

It's nice not having to be financially reliant on my parents anymore, to be able to afford to buy them things they need, to pay for their phone bill. I like being able to take care of them, I'm all growed up now! My mom would be disappointed at how materialistic I've become, but really, isn't it all part of the package? You can't go around flaunting stuff without a hot purse and power heels. I love knowing that when people look at me they think, "Dang, I don't wanna be messin' with her." Yeah you got it bitch, don't mess with me.

YES THIS WAS JUST A POST TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT MY LIFE AND TO CONVINCE MYSELF ALL THIS STUPID WORK AND STUDYING 
NONSENSE IS WORTH IT.

IT'S WORTH IT OKAY.

P.S. My parents will officially have moved to California in exactly a week. I'm so excited :D

it scares me knowing that in three days, my life is going to be exactly the same as it was three months ago.

you'd think money and success would be enough motivation, but sometimes, it really isn't.

i still miss you.
i miss the boy you used to be, the boy i thought i knew.
will you ever come back?
not just to me, but to the people who love you.
i cant let you walk out of my life, not just yet.

i'm growing up too quickly. i want to go back to my frivolous life of boys, friends and fun, when alcohol made everything better and passing an exam was just that, and would not affect how far i go in my career. i dont  want to think about my job security, about how to invest my money so that it will grow to millions of dollars by the time i'm 40. i dont want to think about Serious Relationships, where did my youth go?

i KNOW i'm very lucky. i know my job is very secure for the time being and many others would die to be in my position right now. but all i want to do is turn back time, just 6 months back, when it felt like nothing could go wrong.

i have everything, and nothing, all at the same time.

and as you move on,
remember me, remember us and all we used to be

it has not been a good night tonight. don't you hate it when old feelings sneak up from behind you and whack you on the side of your head?